People say if you close your eyes you can hear “everything.”
I can hear
gossiping
rumors
making fun
And
crying.

My heart is pierced with a sword.
If I step on the lightness the darkness will hide me away.
I can’t ever be the light of the world.

We forever suffer with
cry of people
cry of earth
cry of me
cry of heart
Ha ha…

Never realized I laugh like that, dryly, carelessly, mistakenly, hopelessly.
I will burst into tears any minute.
No I can’t…
I have pride.
A hopeless pride, but it keeps me in control.
Not yet.
Not now.
Until the time comes.